It has been 2 weeks and 2 days since my first chemo treatment. I finally feel better. Not quite at my normal energy level. Food taste is still an issue, but no nausea.
The hair on the other hand… I took my truck for an oil change yesterday. The waiting room was standing room only and there were people hacking, coughing and sniffling so I went outside to wait. The sunshine felt good. Then the wind started blowing. It looked like I was a dandelion and someone had just made a wish. Hair was just blowing away in the breeze. If I committed a crime there would be DNA everywhere!
I knew it was going to fall out. I though I was prepared. I was wrong. Every clump that comes out is a small blow. I will continue to be strong. It just hurts so bad on the inside. I only have one breast, I have chemo rash, and now I have to be bald. There are just some days that it feels like you can’t keep putting on the brave strong face.
My husband was telling me about a class action lawsuit he saw on t.v. where women were given one of the chemo medications I am being given and their hair never grew back. THAT is my nightmare, the big fear. I can only trust my doctor about what chemo drug is given. I know she is good, I researched her thoroughly.
I still haven’t found an insurance solution for 2019. I haven’t given up searching either. I have two months and I am gonna keep looking until I am out of time.
On the bright side, we lit a bonfire yesterday and some of my wonderful friends came by. I am trying to socialize while I can because next Friday the process begins all over again. Also, on my give back project, my Godmother brought by several bags of supplies for me to make more chemo support bags. That made my day!
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